Post by Camden Phillips on Feb 5, 2014 21:33:04 GMT -5
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NINETEEN
MALE
EX-RAVENCLAW
MUGGLEBORN
HETEROSEXUAL
JEREMY IRVINE
CAMDEN LEVI PHILLIPS
 Oh, is that...? No, it can't be. He wouldn't. Where has he been? And just like that, Camden Levi Phillips is suddenly the keeper of everyone's attention. 19 December 2023 Therapist: Alright, Camden, let's start off with how you're feeling today. Camden: How I'm feeling? Therapist: Yes. Camden [agitated]: Ducky. [pause] Therapist: I'm getting the sense that that's not how you really feel. Camden: Why are you gonna ask me how I feel and then not believe me? Therapist: It's merely an observation. Camden: How about you observe me putting my fist through the wall. Therapist: Is that how you feel - angry, violent? Like you want to hurt something? Camden: Yeah. I'm fucking angry, lady. Therapist: Tell me about that. [irritated sigh] Camden: I'm angry because I get out of prison and have to come here. I think this is worse than prison. Therapist: You don't like living in a halfway house? Camden: No. Therapist: Why not? Camden [defeated]: I want my freedom. 26 December 2023 Therapist: Camden, last week you mentioned freedom. Would you like to continue that topic? Camden: I don't care. Therapist: I think it's an interesting subject you brought up. [makes a face] Camden: Why? Therapist: Think about it for a moment. [long pause] Camden [unsure]: Because I just got out of prison, yet I'm stuck here unable to live my life how I want? Therapist: It's more than that. Think back... about your childhood. [pause] Why do you want your freedom so badly? Camden: I've never really had it. [thinks] My entire life was structured for me. I've never been able to do me. My life has always been someone's plan. Even when I thought I was free, living on the streets with the family, I wasn't. We could never stay in the same place too long, or else the police would show up. None of us wanted to go home.... I couldn't. I would have been put into foster care. [narrows eyes] But then why would I fuck up right when I'm about to get my freedom? Therapist: You mean... Camden: Graduation. I screwed everything up and I had been doing so well. Why did I let it all go? Therapist: Perhaps you were scared of having freedom. Maybe you were unsure how everything was going to work and you reverted to old habits. Camden [defeated]: I don't know... All I know is that I had everything and fucked it up real bad. Therapist: Now you're getting a second chance. 02 January 2024 Therapist: Let's visit your childhood. Camden: Why? Don't you have all of that info in my file? Therapist: It doesn't matter. We need to talk about it. [pauses] What is your first memory? Camden: Come on! This is ridiculous. Therapist: Alright, just pick a memory. Any memory. [hefty sigh] Camden: I remember... having picnics near a pond. I laughed a lot. I remember feeling the sun warm my skin. Therapist: All good things. Camden: Why does it matter? Therapist: Were you happy? Camden: I guess so. Why? Therapist: Because you can get back to that same happiness. Camden [shakes head furiously]: No. No, I can't. Therapist: Why do you think that? Camden: Because... my parents kicked me out! I was a little different, so they kicked me out. Said I worshiped the devil. They literally left an eleven-year-old scared kid out on the streets in the slums to fend for himself. And look where I am now. Therapist: You're on the road to recovery. Camden: I shouldn't need it. My parents should have loved me no matter what. Therapist [quietly]: Yes, they should have. 09 January 2024 Therapist: Hello, Camden. How are you? Camden: Not too bad. Yourself? Therapist: I'm well, thank you for asking. Is there anything you want to talk about? Camden: No. Therapist: Perfect. Let's start with something you mentioned last week - your parents kicking you out. Why was that? Camden: You're not going to believe me. Therapist: Try me. Camden: I... [mutters] I'm a wizard. Therapist: Come again? Camden [takes deep breath]: I'm. A. Wizard. Therapist [purses lips]: I see. [pauses] Camden... do you really believe that? Camden [offended]: I am! Therapist [writes]: I need you to take these sessions seriously. Camden [angry]: I. Am. I'll prove it to you! Therapist: How? Camden: I know we're not allowed to have visitors, but there is someone who can explain all of this. I'll write to her and you two can meet up. Therapist: A real person? Camden [grits teeth]: Yes. 23 January 2024 Camden: Did you meet with her? Therapist [tightly]: Yes. Camden: And? Therapist: I feel like I need therapy now. Camden [chuckles]: It's a lot to take in. Therapist: It certainly is. [pauses] Your parents met her, as well? Who is she again? I'm so... dazed. Camden: Isabella O'Malley, headmistress of the magic school I went to. My parents met her, yes. She explained the same things to them as she did to you - I'm assuming. [long pause] Therapist: Your parents kicked you out because... Camden: Religion. They said I had the devil in me. They didn't believe in it. Therapist: Hmm. Isabella seems fond of you. Camden [smiles]: I'm best mates with her nephew - or I was. I don't know where we stand now. Therapist: And what's his name? Camden: Kaycee. Therapist: Do you think he would be upset with you if you two were to ever meet again? Camden [shrugs]: I dunno. I know I would be. Therapist: You say that because you're upset with yourself. And, because it will help you face rejection in case things don't turn out well. Camden: If you expect nothing from anybody, you're never disappointed. Therapist: Exactly. 06 March 2024 Therapist: So the street gang became your family? Camden: Yeah. It wasn't so bad. I had people to look out for me, help me find food... but it also got me into trouble. Therapist: What sort of trouble? Camden: We stole, we broke into stores or abandoned buildings, we scared girls at night just for laughs, we dealt drugs. Did them, too. Therapist: But the police never caught you? Camden: No. We were always too fast for them. We knew places to hide that they didn't. Therapist: Mmhmm. And were you a tog dog, as they say? Camden: Nearly. I was one of the most respected out of the brothers. There was a little shit who came along one day... worshiped the hell out of me. Therapist: And how did that make you feel? Camden: Really good, actually. I had had a little sister... when I had real parents. I lied being an older brother. And this little guy, he really needed someone to look out for him. The others were kind of mean to him, but I always put them straight. They messed with him, they were messing with me. Therapist: What was his name? Camden [smiles]: Kailen. His name was Kailen. [smile fades] He probably hates me. Therapist: Why do you say that? Camden: Because I left him. I just left. I didn't even say goodbye. I disappeared-- Therapist: You were in prison. Camden: He doesn't know that. And this isn't the first time I left him, so he probably really hates me. Therapist: You had left him before? Camden: To go to Hogwarts. I couldn't tell him because I thought he was a muggle... turns out, he's like me. It was like the universe knew and made our paths cross. I miss him. 20 March 2024 Therapist: I hear you got a job? Camden: Yeah. Nothing special. Just cleaning businesses during off hours. Therapist: Well, congratulations. It's a very big step to make. Camden: I suppose. Therapist: Have you ever had a job before? Camden: No. But I was Prefect at Hogwarts. Therapist: That's impressive! Camden: That's when everything was going right. Therapist: We all have setbacks. Camden: I had a girlfriend... god, she's beautiful. I haven't seen her in a while, but I'm sure she's just as dazzling. I didn't think she even knew I existed before that. Her name is Chloe, 'cause I know you're going to ask. She's a sweetheart, but in the end... I acted like the asshole I always was. Therapist: Tell me about that. Camden: It was when everything was going wrong... I was using again and didn't want her to know. So I told her that because she wouldn't have sex with me, I couldn't date her anymore. Therapist: You thought the truth would hurt her more? Camden [shakes head]: No. Chloe is so... gentle, you know? A broken heart is one thing. I knew that she could handle that. But she couldn't handle having a broken heart and knowing that I was using again. I did what I had to do to protect her. Therapist: Do you still care about her? Camden: Yeah, I do. Therapist: What would you tell her if you saw her again? Camden: ...That I was sorry. I don't deserve her forgiveness, but that I'm so so sorry. [long pause] Therapist: I think that's enough for today. After staying in the halfway house for another four months, Camden was finally released. Isabella O'Malley agreed to let him live with her for the time being, as Hogwarts was out for the summer holidays. She has a small place in Ireland. Camden has been out for a week and is nervous about making a reappearance in the wizarding world. He hopes to make amends with some people and keep his life on the right track. Full name: Camden Levi Phillips Age: 19 Birthday: March 4th, 2005 Hair color: Brown Eye color: Grey/blue Height: 6'1" HANNA 24 GMT -5 |
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